Adunni Adeh
2 min readApr 8, 2022

It was dark

It was dark, and I tried all my best to fight it

Oh my God, I really tried to fight it

But it kept seducing and taunting me

Calling me weak and showing me the power I could have if only I would choose to succumb to it

I tried to remain good through it all

I promise you I tried

But it was tired of being held back

It was such a powerful pushy feeling

You will need to be light and good to fight it

And I am none of that

I have no light or goodness left in me

So finally I succumbed to it

It came rushing like a dam and I couldn’t hold back

So I beat, slapped and kicked her till she was almost unconscious

Her moans of pain was feeding the darkness in me

I wanted so much to stop but I couldn't

I couldn't stand seeing her in so much pain

I couldn't stop the energy pumping into me either

It was a powerful and a sick thing

I loved it and I hated it

While doing this, a tiny small voice in my head kept telling me to stop

Telling me how much I love the recipient of my blows

But I was so far gone and the voice couldn't reach me

So I brokenly continued to inflict pain

I was so broken inside but I couldn't stop

My body stopped belonging to me

I was tired but I couldn't stop still

My eyes was dry and cold but my heart was wailing

Suddenly I remembered one of her many contagious smiles

I heard the sound of her happiness in her laughter

And just like that the dam of terror and darkness was closed shut

That was the day I came across the darkness in me

That was the day I realized I could kill

Help.

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Adunni Adeh

Chasing peace while writing everything and nothing all at once